About Me

I chose to write this blog using a pseudonym in order to give myself a little more anonymity. I’m not ready to share my real identity with my story. I do, however, need a place where I can vent, tell my story (even though I’m cautious about doing so), and speak out about mental health issues and mental illness. It’s scary enough sharing the details of one’s life with another person. Sharing these vulnerable aspects of myself with the entirety of the internet feels even more daunting a task. Given the current stigma associated with mental illness and the rape culture that persists in our society, I feel that it is necessary and very much-needed for those of us with these experiences to speak out about them. More understanding is required before we can take the steps to fix a broken mental health system.

I need to speak out. Over the years, I have isolated myself to the point of becoming a recluse. Other than my boyfriend, counselor, and case manager, it’s very rare that I interact with other people in real life. I’m finding that the longer I struggle with these issues in my life alonethe harder it is to heal from them. I can’t continue fighting this in silence. I have to find my voice again for my own sanity. I’m not looking for sympathy here. My life is the product of a great many mistakes on my part. There’s no denying that. My hope is that by sharing my story, I can finally release it, let it go. I’ll continue updating this “About Me” section as my blog grows, but My Story provides a more in-depth look at my life. All parts of My Story, a total of 13 posts, are also linked below.

I am placing a ***Trigger Warning*** on my entire blog because I will be discussing a great many details of my life that could possibly be triggering for some readers. Please, exercise caution while reading if you experience issues with PTSD, particularly PTSD that results from rape, suicide attempts, or self-harm. I know from personal experience that reading others’ accounts of traumatic events can be very triggering, so be sure to practice self-care and compassion for yourself if reading becomes overwhelming.

General stuff – I live in a quiet community in Tennessee, USA. I enjoy all things creative, i.e. photography, drawing, painting, playing piano. Music and art bring me great comfort. I also love to be out in nature and hiking.

Comments are welcomed. I ask only that you, please, be civil and respectful. If you’re shy about commenting publicly, feel free to email me at: gh0stwr1tertrixie@gmail.com. 

Thank you for stopping by. You may call me, Trixie.

8 thoughts on “About Me

  1. I nominated you for the Brave Heart Award. http://avictimsjournal.wordpress.com/2014/03/25/brave-heart-award/ I call you a survivor, because that is what you are. There are days when you don’t feel like a survivor and there are days when the memories trigger your past and it feels like you are losing the fight – but you are not. Take the past and heal with it. You are strong. I want you to know that the abuse was not your fault. It does not matter what age it happened. You did not deserve it, you did not cause it, and you did not bring it on yourself. You own no shame, guilt, or remorse. In your life, you have faced many demons but look around you and you will see there is hope, and there is beauty. You are beautiful, You are loved, there is hope. You deserve to be loved and treated with respect. You deserve peace and joy in your life. Don’t settle for anything less than that. God has plans for you. Your future does not have to be dictated by your past.

    • Morgan, thank you so much for the award and the kind words that accompany it. I’m not sure if I know of 12 other bloggers at this time to pass it along to; but I will certainly keep the Brave Heart Award in mind as I read and, hopefully, become more active in the WordPress community. Thank you, again. Your kindness means a lot to me. ~ Trixie

  2. Thanks so much for following my blog, GWT! Glad you’re keeping up with your blog. I treat mine as a place to document what’s right/mostly wrong with the American healthcare system, and, if anything, let it stand as my legacy if I decide it’s over. But for now, I press on, I set small goals and I celebrate once I meet them. One foot in front of the other, that’s my mantra! The good news is…there’s a lot of us out here. 🙂

    • It was my pleasure to follow your blog. I enjoyed what I read immensely and hope to visit often to read more. Thank you as well for the follow back and comments. My blogs are much the same, a legacy of my life.

      It’s my hope that each of us finds some measure of contentment and happiness to balance out the struggles.

  3. Hello,

    I just stumbled onto your blog and I immediately starting following. I think your blog will be able to help issues you are going through as well help others like myself who are suffering with anxiety and other mental health issues. I haven’t read anything yet, but I look forward to reading your story. I wish you the best and thank you for writing openly about your issues. I feel it is very important ❤

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